secrets.

so i got this of a my good friend danielle! check her blog out, i thuoght id just share with you a few of my secrets! let you get too know me a bit better.

I am very insecure about, the way i look, talk, act, everything!

I have always since i can first remember been insecure about my ears, they seem to poke out a bit too much than everyone elses. (dumbo the elephant!!!)

I miss my best friend, and hate the fact i can't see her every day

I feel really bad about moving away from her and everyone else i love

Moving away from kent was one of the hardest things ive ever had too do

Ive only ever properly lost someone I love, my grandad who I miss a lot!

I over analyze and read in too little things that don't matter and don't think about the things that do matter

I often wish I looked like other people, even though I know if everyone looked the same it'd be boring

Im scared people will think wrongly of me and dislike me

Id love too have kids in my 20's before im married

I would love too have lots and lots of children

I underestimate my abilities then shock myself when i get a good grade in a lesson

I dream of being a big high end make-up artist

I would love to go live in new york for a year then come back home

Im scared of turning old and being a burden to my family

I blog because it's the one place were only the people I can trust see this, and the rest i don't know and cant judge and laugh at me

My hair going right in the morning can boost my confidence a hole lot more than if it looked a mess

Im scared people I love will choose popularity and reputation over me

I can cry at the littlest things. Not at films but an argument, hearing someone i love being talked about can make me cry

I keep all of my true emotions inside and put on a front because im too embarressed to share how i actually feel

When im home alone i sing out as loud as i can and tell my self im better than any celeb ;)

Since starting my new school, i've realised who my real friends are and the ones who actually care and love me for who i am

Im scared of death

I come across as shy but when the people i love are being hurt I can;t help but open my mouth

I have said things in the past that I regret, alot

I would love to be succesfull youtube guru but too scared to actually do it incase i get judged

I somtimes wonder if anything really good will happen

I beat my self up about little things that have happened and find it hard to forget

Having such beautifull friends makes me feel less good about my self

I somtimes feel im not good enough for certain people

I go very shy around people i really like, and then get angry at my self for my mind going blank and just standing there (it happens too everyone!)

I hate the popularity contest in school. and 3 quaters off the people in it

I hate the way my body looks but im too lazy too do anything about it :P

I wish people would look past make-up and clothes and get too know people before judging them

I think homophobic behvaiour is the lowest form of bullying

My absolute dream dream job would be a singer/dancer een as i cant hold a tune that wont happen, maybe the dancing ayy? ;)

When Jay Mcguiness from theWANTED complimented my smile, it made my life and has made me really confident with my smile

All i want to do is please people and let them see the real me, not what the rumours tell them

My mouth has got me in a lot of trouble in the past

I wouldnt be the person i am with out my best friends, especially Olivia, she is like my unbiological sister and it would hurt the hell out of me if anyhting happened to her


so i think ive bored you enough sharing my insecurities but if you got far enough to read this, thank you

Bernie
xxx